Thanks for updating Jackie. I probably will not be joining you to see the Passion because I'll probably have to work. My grandparents showed an interest in going so I can just go see it with them.
Also, if you could keep my co-worker in your prayers because she just picked up some new infections and will need a bone-marrow transplant.
But I have my own news. Look at the sidebar! I used my calendar and the Lent prayer thinger to compile a bunch of Jesus-related dates. We can pick and choose which things we want to go to! And we can pray as a big Jesus family! Because that's what we do! So, yeah. If you have anything I missed, let me know. We're seeing "The Passion" next Friday, right? I can add that, too...I guess I just wanted all the dates in one spot. 'Cause there's lots of ways to find ways to connect with God through youth stuff and through Lent stuff, so....there you are. I try to be a good administrator of this blog of ours! We need to invite more people, maybe. Who else should we invite??
Thanks again to Jennifer for having us last night....it was really nice, even if I couldn't talk much. And I would've eaten lots of pizza! But anyway, I just wanted to post this link that I found at Lifeteen (the link to Lifeteen is on the sidebar, yo). It's about stress, and I'm sure we could all benefit from reading it. If not today, then certainly when we all go back to stupid, stupid school. Due to my inability to talk, I've been doing lots of thinking. But I'm too lazy to write out my thoughts and I don't think they're fully formed yet. Just know that they're about Jesus! And life. And stuff. I'll write them in here one day. The end.
So, um, I just wanted to make sure....I don't exactly have my ride figured out to go to Jennifer's house yet! So if you all get there tomorrow, and I'm not there, then I'm lying on my couch incapacitated and drooling and bleeding on gauze, and one of you had better come and drive me over there! Because I'm coming, high on drugs or not! And plus, I have the movies we stole from the Catechis (how the hell do you spell that??) Center today - Prince of Egypt and one that looks like it but isn't. Anyway. I will look forward to tomorrow, when you will all eat, and I will bleed and drool, and it will be a wonderful time. HAHA.
What the F&*K!!!! Ok, I'm listening to a music video from Maroon 5 and I was enjoying the song up until a model and the star started getting frisky on my television set. I just want to tell them STOP HAVING SEX ON MY TV. I don't any stray std's on my television set. Is that such a hard thing! Also, don't ruin a perfectly good song with smut!
However, even though I hate when people are smuttin up my TV. It really sad what is being forcibly aloud on our television set. Showing people in bed and getting it on just shows how much moral and ethical values we have. Not only that, what abou the kiddies. The media continues to show its filth on a regular basis and effecting the values of us! I mean just walk down the halls. As of now, the behavior being showed by our school is PG13-R. KISSING, SUCKING FACE, TOUNGUEING, FAKE HUMPING>
JUST KNOCK IT OFF!! WHEN you get married, or even afterschool, you do whatever the hell you want. Why did God have to make love pleasurable? Big QUESTION!
I just wanted to check in here. I've been trying to keep up with life lately and have fallen behind, but I just caught up on all of the posts! I just wanted to let you all know how truly blessed I am to have you in my life. I see your strength and utmost faith and it's the most inspiring thing I could ever witness. Carrie, Ashley, Jackie, ALL of you... your strength amazes me. You all amaze me, every single one of my Jeebus bloggers! You all help me to realize just who I want to be and the light we all have inside. Whenever I'm feeling down, you give me the light that enables me to see the path upon which I can reach my dreams. And it means so much more to me than you'll ever realize. Sometimes I think about where I would be, and the person I would be without Liturgy and New Life and everything... and I don't know. I really don't think I'd want to know. It's gotten me to where I am right now, and shaped me into the person I can now see inside myself. Before I started coming to Liturgy I don't think I really knew that person, but now I'm beginning to understand just how much one life can change the world for the better. I've learned that from you. You've helped me light up my candle, and together our candles shine with a life and a warmth that I will never forget. You all help drive my faith and keep me going and I love you all so much! Thank you for everything.
Right now I have to get back to my homework... I still have like an hour's worth left. Hehe O:-) Oh well. Night, and God bless you~
This is just an advertisement, I guess. I know a lot of you are interested in seeing Mel Gibson's movie "The Passion". Diane Sawyer has an interview with Mel Gibson that's going to be on TV tonight at 9:00, on ABC. I'm going to watch it, ;D And yeah, I agree with Ryan - we should all definitely see it together! I'm already planning to try to do extra History homework this week so that I'll be sure to be able to go next week.
Oh, and I forgot something else! As you can see on the sidebar (see, I try to do some stuff to make this page useful!), Taize Prayer is this Wednesday at 6:15. I've only gone once before, and that was when it first started. Does anyone want to go with me? I think it only takes half an hour or forty-five minutes. It's a really peaceful form of prayer. They hold it in the Chapel, and there is a lot of singing, and chanting, mostly in Latin. I thought it was cool the first time I went...and I think that most of the people who attend are....well, older than we are. So we should go! So, yeah. Let me know if you want to come with me!
You are such a whore!!! You type up this heart-felt message then you end it with and I quote: "I love you whores."
You're a funny kid. A lot of times with pain, you just have to suck it, pull up the boot strings and trudge on. Because life sucks like that.
Ashley, hang in there whore.
Well, I got asked to go on an interview down in Meinrad. They gave this cheesy message that tons of people have applied and that I was one of a few that was the best of the best! Go ME!
But, I didn't come her to talk to you about my shit, I came to inform and remind all of you whores that Jennifer wants us to dine with her this week. See you Thursday!
Edit: Ryan, I deleted the email because it has phone numbers and addresses in it! This could be a serious privacy issue. If anybody, for whatever reason, didn't receive the email from Carrie, please email Jennifer, Carrie, Ryan, or myself. Everybody who is a part of the Jeebus Blog is on the sidebar, you just have to click their name to write them an email! ~ Jackie
I wrote this really long email to Carrie...after just thinking about stuff over the last couple of weeks. And while I ended up typing a lot of the book Ecclesiastes in the email, I won't reprint that here. Feel free to look it up in the Bible, it's my favorite book in the Bible. But for you all, I will share what I wrote after: I remember reading this book for the first time. I loved that verse, 'the more you know, the more you hurt....', and I remember reading, thinking, "This is exactly how I feel when I'm depressed! This is exactly it!" And I remember reading more, and more, growing excited, knowing that at the end, I would find the answer, the reason, to all of these questions and pains that I felt. But I got to the end of the book, and I had found nothing. I was disillusioned for a while, but then I reread it. And the reason is in there multiple times. We can't begin to understand the mind of God. Everything that happens to us has happened before and will happen again. We don't know why. All we know is that it hurts. But....we have friends. And every day, we still get up, completely unaware of what kind of pain we'll have to face in the course of the day. And some days it's unbearable. But when the next day comes, we still get up. There is so much evil and suffering in this world that sometimes it seems like we're all drowning in darkness. But....well, I know that I'm not going to let the darkness defeat me. I know I've got a lot of work to do in this world....Most people don't care, but I know pain all to well that I can't just...go on accepting it every day. Pain is crap by itself: Pain doesn't have to defeat us. It's going to be part of our lives no matter what we do. Pain will make us cry. And pain will knock us off our feet, again, and again. But....well, to hell with staying down on the ground. Even if I'm crawling on bleeding hands and knees, I know that I'm not going to stay there. I'm just a girl with curly hair, but I'm stubborn. So....maybe we can crawl together. Because "all the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle". And I know my candle's not going out. And since it's lit anyway, it might as well defeat as much darkness as it can.
I just thought everyone should know that....a combination of Carrie's short email to me and the last couple of posts MADE JACKIE CRY. But it was the good kind..... :*) Well, sort of. I don't know how I'm going to survive in college without you guys! I will write to you all in the Jeebus Blog every night, I think. ;_; But then after college, maybe I'll come back and live here and still go to Nativity! Heehee.
Also, Cheesy Catholic Pick-Up Lines: (I just picked the ones that made me laugh out loud and roll on the floor....no, not really. But I thought I'd put them here anyway)
1. I lost my copy of Theology of the Body...can I read yours? 5. If I had a rosary bead for every time I thought of you, I'd have a glorious mystery. 9. I lost my rosary; can I use your fingers?
Yeah, thanks, Carrie. Although my sister, brother-in-law, and the kids came for dinner. And my mom made us steak. Ohhhh.....*clutches stomach* But it's okay because it's okay to eat like a pig once a while! Tomorrow I will try not eat with the same voracity. Congratulations on getting your internship at St. Meinrad, Ryan. I hope you get accepted, and I hope that when you do, you won't have any......outbursts like the one you had when we were there, ;)
Anyway, I invited Ashley and Shane to our Jeebus Blog. Hopefully they’ll join (unlike Father John and Manny!) and then we’ll have more people! Yay, people. And hopefully the Jeebus Blog won’t die again this time. It seems to go in spurts, but hopefully we’ll keep it going….even if it’s just plodding. And look! I took this quiz to see "which enemy of the Christian Church" I am, and this is what I got:
I'm well aware that everyone is probably going to think I'm either bipolar or insane. Whatever.
I've created a High On Jesus Yahoo group. It is not meant to replace the blog. Just a place to post pictures and to remember fun events that we've had over the years. Everyone can easily add pictures to the yahoo. Thing. I just iploaded some pictures for the group.
Well, today this Catholic website spending a huge amount of resources trying to outlaw Gay marriage. Which, I agree.......that Marriage is for a man and a women....the end, they can call it something else.
However, WTF! There are so many other problems. Because I feel like shit from this med, I am extra aggitated today. Here is what I wrote to them.
"To who ever owns this,
Look, I'm with you guys in the whole thing that marriage is between a man and women. However, I think you guys could spend more time on more pressing issues. Perhaps, inspiring people to help the 30 percent that falls below the poverty line in the United States. Or how about the millions of people in Africa who have not a clue whether they will have something on their dinner table tonight. What about the Aids crisis? What about the other hundreds of things that are actually causing harm to other people. Why don't we spend more of our time and resources on something that is harming people then a harmless choice. I'm sure you are going to respond by saying this is an abomination to God. I'm sure God puts this issue far below the rest of problems plagueing our planet.
An Upset Roman Catholic,
RP"
RESPONSE FROM REP. OF CATHOLIC VOICE: You are right that more time needs to be spent on the other issues you mentioned and we will be doing that. Our resources are limited now. However this marriage issue is a very critical one for the future of our society. Strong marriages and stable families with a mother and father are important for the welfare of future generations. Right now, families are breaking down and never are formed too often in our society. It is a leading contributor to poverty and is damaging to the children involved. Our laws must send positive messages to our kids on marriage, the family and their future.
True that Jackie! I've started to realize a lot of things lately. It feels as though my eyes have been opened to something more, something I couldn't see a week ago. And it's completely widened my perspective, and changed my outlook on the person I want to be and the life I want to lead. I woke up this morning and decided that I'm going to change the way I live.
~ Starting today, I won't hold onto regrets. They're all forgotten, erased. I'm learning to forgive myself, and to take the lessons I've learned, along with the memories, and move on.
~ Starting today I won't beat myself up for stupid mistakes. Life's far too short. It's not worth it.
~ Starting today I won't worry about what other people think. My best is enough for God, so it's enough for me.
~ Starting today I won't be afraid to sing with all my heart. If I feel like dancing, I'll dance. If I get the chance, I'll tell the people close to me how much I love them.
~ Starting today I won't take the little things for granted. I'll let myself take breaks to watch the sunset, go for walks, wish on stars... and thank God for every breath.
~ Starting today I'll make time for the things I love, and take time out of my busy schedule to let God talk to me. He's talking to me all the time... it's just a matter of whether or not I shut up long enough to let me hear Him.
Starting today I choose to live for God. I choose to see the good in all people, and to help them find it in themselves. I choose to accept the sorrows and joys of life as they come. I choose to do everything I can each day to truly live.
This is my new goal for life. Matt was a light in all our lives, and his light can live in us. And like Jackie said, we can't keep our candles hidden. Together, we can strengthen the light in each other, then go out and spread it to the rest of the world. There's still a lot of darkness out there, so it's time we go light it up. Father Jim challenged us all to take what we have inside of us and go change the world in Matt's honor... so let's start living.
I love you all so much more than you know. Thank you for being a part of my life. And Carrie, as always all of our prayers are with you and your family. God bless~
I wrote this in my blog....and even with the expletive at the end, I think it's fitting that it goes in here as well.
Father Jim also made comments about faith, that filled me with hope.....that darkness, and evil, and loneliness can never win. Because light will always break dark - as it says on my sidebar, "All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle." So if we take our candles, and light more.....then all that's evil better run the hell away, because I, for one, do not intend to keep my candle hidden and protected. My candle's going to light up some shit.
